Rising bile finally subsides.
I think of you, and everything seems fine for a second.
Then the floodgates open and I get avalanched in emotion.
Time was right to be abandoned when I needed someone most.
To long, to breathe, to take in your being without being smothered.
I can't, and I didn't. I deserve more as do you and thus it is so.
A relationship with boundaries is absurd, and I call that a farce.
To hold back and not let the rawest emotion be?
No, I gave my all as did you, I guess mine was just a well that was forever.
As you ran out of that elixir...I wonder if you ever had.
I won't think of such thing. The time we had was bliss.
I'm sorry I couldn't be what you wanted. I hope you the best.
Heading into the unknown alone, is no longer a terrifying prospect.
In fact I welcome it. For once love is a not a crutch...but a memory I can cherish.
We didn't weather the storm. The future awaits in all its malleable glory.
Inexorably I'll wake up...wake up...wake up...until the bile is no longer there.
I'm sorry.